Saturday, November 12, 2005

*ADELINE IS TURNING THREE

On November 30th. . . Her partry is Sunday the 27th. If you are in Lincoln please stop by. . . Post a comment if you would like to attend.
*UPDATE: Good news, rumor has it that Nana may be here to celebrate Addy Prays B-day!

Friday, November 11, 2005

*ADELINE (some photos to share)

























*TODAY IS . . .




eleven eleven. . . if you know what i mean. . .

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

*Found this letter today...Feeling very sad and very loved...I miss you Beautiful Becca.


OCTOBER 17, 04
Dear Oprah,
I am writing you regarding my husband Patrick, and my wish to grant him, his wildest dreams come true. We have been through so much together and I would like to be able to show him my gratitude. (In order to keep it as short and simple as possible, I will have to leave out some important details.) Here is our story. I was diagnosed with malignant melanoma 8 years ago when I was 22 years old. It was a horrible experience. 4 years later I met Patrick, and we fell in love immediately. Soon after, my melanoma returned. I was 3 months pregnant, but went through with the surgery. Again, I had such a traumatic experience, I ended up losing my baby. We were devastated. Patrick proposed, and we were married Dec. 2, 2000. It was the best day of or lives. He loved me more than anything and through anything. In the year after we were married, I began to feel safe for the first time in my life. I had a tumultuous childhood and though I had done a lot of healing, I had never really known love like this before. So I began to have memories of being sexually abused as a small child. This was a horrible time and took it’s toll on Patrick, as he became the brunt of my anger and fear. It took time, but we worked through this and fell deeper in love as a result. I felt in awe that a man would stick it out with me through such hard times. Little did I know that this was only the beginning. My cancer returned with a vengeance. Again we were pregnant, and they urged me to abort. I felt crushed. I just wanted to be a normal, young newlywed and have the baby I always wanted. The doctors were abusive and killed any sense of power or hope that I struggled to hold on to. I again miscarried due to the stress, and felt defeated. I have always been spiritual, sensitive, and very intuitive. I now felt so low, but somehow I managed to find the strength to heal myself of my cancer. Patrick was totally supportive and we bagan a rigorous schedule of acupuncture 6 days a week, saw as many “healers” as possible, psychotherapy, dance therapy, a macrobiotic diet, and a lot of crying. Patrick took it upon himself to raise the money to support my path. He is a very talented actor, but because I was always going through so much, he ended up putting most of his career on hold. So we live quite modestly. He reached out to the community and together they raised about $25,000. Just enough to pay for all my medical and acupuncture bills. 3 months later my cancer was gone. I could not have done it without the love and support of my husband. A year later I gave birth to our beautiful daughter, Adeline. We finally felt some relief. But when Adeline turned 1 1/2, my cancer returned again. This time I had 2 very large tumors in my pelvis. I was crushed. I thought I was done with my cancer for good. I decided to do a combination of natural healing and western medicine. I had major surgery 12 days ago, and feel better every day. This has caused our family tremendous stress though. My husband has been through so much hardship, and we haven’t even been married 4 years yet. And my daughter was nursing up until the surgery and we had never been apart. So this has also taken it’s toll on her, of course. And now we are losing our home. We have a small 1 bedroom apartment but we like it because it’s rent controlled and 5 blocks from the beach. Our landlord wants to fumigate (tent) due to termites. I cannot come back into such a chemically toxic environment, nor would we bring our child into one. We researched healthier alternatives that have great result, but our landlord wouldn’t budge. I have a bankruptcy due to all my overwhelming medical expenses, and Patrick keeps deferring his student loans, so our credit is poor. We are having a hard time finding someone to lease us a new place. Plus, the rents are so outrageous in Los Angeles, we really can’t afford them anyway. So, are forced to move in with my mom. This has crushed Patrick’s ego, which has already been damaged through the years.
My wish is to give him a house of his own. A place with a yard for our daughter to play. I know this is big to ask, but he deserves it more than anyone. He has sacrificed his life for mine. He has given me everything and more. His whole world revolves around Adeline and I. It is time for Patrick to feel special and know that his work has not gone unnoticed.
If by some chance, you choose to help us, I would like to surprise him. So I will give you my cell phone and my mom’s email and cell phone # as well.

Thank you for taking the time to read this, and for all the good that you do.

With love,

Becca E. Wilkins

Monday, November 07, 2005

*Email from Tifanie Chaney

What a pumpkin. She's going to be three, isn't she? God. She looks just like you and Becca. She's so beautiful... I miss you guys. I miss Becca. She had a profound, profound impact on my life. I will always carry her with me. She was one of the most incredible people I ever met. She was at my wedding, you know. I wasn't sure she'd be able to make it. Then I was walking down the aisle and... I was doing fine. Quite composed. And then I saw Becca standing there and she was smiling and crying. And then I started to cry!

...I just loved her so much. I'm so glad I got to know her. And sooo glad I got to meet you and Adeline! You both have such incredibly special souls. Thank you so much for putting together that Blog site. It really warmed my heart to see those pictures. That picture of Adeline with the "crown" is incredible! I'm glad you two are enjoying your new home in Nebraska. Thank you for sending the address. I can't wait to read more about your journey.

So many blessings,
Tifanie

Sunday, November 06, 2005

*Some photos to share




Summer, 05. Adeline, Katie, Becca & Sasha. . . How beautiful she looked. . .

Thursday, November 03, 2005

*Email from Tracy Keatinge...Becca's dear friend and hair person

Me: Thought of you today while looking at photos of Becca's extensions that you did. I love you. . . Please feel worthy of posting comments, or sending me stories to post. Becca was very fond of you and I would love for you to be a part of the blog....

Tracy:
She is the truest friend I've ever had. Your wedding ranks up there with the sacredness of giving birth to my babies. Very, very precious times. Okay, I will....please give my love to Beth and Katie. I remember when I yanked Katie aside to be my hair model for my test. Then I met Beth. They told me about Becca. She was the "cool sister" who lived in New York. An actress and I was so intimidated with the anticipation of meeting her. Beth was already my self proclaimed other mom and I'd have traded both my sisters to be a Howard-Klain sister! When we were introduced she looked straight at me with her deep, kind eyes and I felt she knew me already and that it was all good. I shared my soul with her each time she ever let me do her hair. I am a stronger woman because of all those hours of highlights! There's your story for now. Thank you. You are loved. I've missed you so, so much.


The beautiful Howard-Klain girls.

Wednesday, November 02, 2005

*Travel. . .

Saying saying goodbye to Elisha

Saying goodbye to Big O

Pit Stop

DAY ONE.
725 miles. Somewhere in Utah! . . Adeline did well, she sang songs, ate, asked questions, sang, asked questions and then she sang and ate. Our Cat and our fish both hate me.



DAY TWO.
Boulder Colrado. Saying Hello to our very dear friend Robin.